“The good news is… you came a long way. The bad news is you went the wrong way. What’s money without happiness? Or hard times without the people you love.”
These profound lyrics have made a profound impact in my life since last week.
I’ve been struggling to maintain order in my life the past couple of weeks. I have been so easily induced into anxiety and madness. I’ve let myself be overrun by silly distractions, and fell victim to myself.
The good news is that I have developed a better sense of what I want to move towards. I have found much happiness in spending time with others doing activities such as slacklining, talking about God, philosophizing, among other things.
It’s quite difficult to write at this very moment. I suspect it is due to all the Virtual Reality experiences I had today.
After my existential crisis, I developed a better sense of allowing myself to be free of self-resistance, but it seems I’m developing other issues. Because I am no longer questioning myself as much as I did before, my thoughts seem very unorganized at times and I often catch myself trying to juggle 20 different thoughts at a time. It’s a hard idea to try to explain. Even now, I recognize that this post seems to be jumping all over the place with topics! It is pretty late in the day after all.
Come tomorrow, I will begin another meditation routine. I’m going to try and give myself a routine. Wake up around 10, head to grab some coffee. Head to work around 12, and then class at 2.